Drama Never Ends

Yesterday I sat here nervous and scared. Not able to sleep. I didn't know why. I just couldn't sleep. And as I did I got a phone call; my brother, Kory, got in a car accident. I picked up and was like "Hello." and he was all like "Is my mom there, Wake her up. I got in a car crash. Get her up!" And I did. I felt so bad. I woke up Kathy and she was shocked that I was actually giving her the phone. You could hear him across the room, yelling and screaming to her that he was Hurt really badly and that he was "Fucked". Well he got home and he was so scared and so loud. He was hurt not to bad but he could of died because he was going 90 down a 30 zone and he wasn't wearing his seat belt. After helping him some what and having everyone go home Me and Leah crashed asleep.I thought of Jason cause he likes to speed and everyonce in a while drink while driving.That's why I always asked Jason to slow down when we were in the car cause something like this could of happened. But I know he wasn't drunk or doesn't get drunk often. But anyway...(it was like 4 in the morning or something of that sort when we fell asleep.) And Well the next day around 8 a.m. or so i got a call from my mother and she said that "My Cousin MURDERED my Aunt and Her Neice." My own fucking Cousin killed his Mom and his Cousin. He might of even tried to Kill his Dad. He shot 'em. He shot them cold. I started crying when i hung up the phone. Everyone else was a sleep. I just tried to go back asleep but I couldn't. So I got a few hours sleep and now I just keep getting shit piled on my life every other fucking day. I hate this world. It's so stupid. I just wish people were smart or Just fucking Right in the head. But No! People have to be dumb asses and raise their kids to want to kill and fight. That's it. And I have lost so many people that I really loved now with in the past few weeks it's crazy. My mom wants to take me to the fucking Funeral but I don't know if I want to go cause my mother will be there. The only reason I would go is for My Aunt's, Her Neice, and My Cousins Fault. Maybe to see my Grandma. I really can't stand this world. Shit just keeps getting Piled up. I hope Bill is doing okay. I love you Jason. xoxo. Tootles for now. I will write Later. !~!Manda!~!