Jason, I have to say a few things after reading your blog. You're NOT going to lose me. How do I know? I don't see anyone else but you in my life. That's all there is. I don't see no other man, or boy trying to get close to me. What I meant in my blog was that I was getting asked out and that I didn't like it. All I wanted/needed was a friend. That's all so, sweetie, you'll never lose me. I have no feelings for anyone else. You've stolen all my heart and breath. I promise you that there will be no one else. There never will be. EVER. My love for you still stays strong and so do All my promises that I made to you. I'm not moving on. I'm trying not to think about things that often like I do but it's hard. I would never move on from my First Love, Never will I forget you either. How come? Because you'll always be with me, You, Me, and some day maybe our children. We'll always be together. Right now, it's hard, but some day our family will grow and we will be even happier than we were before.
I cried so hard, like the day we both said our good byes, when I read your blog. I feel the same way about everything. I really do. I want to take things off of my mind and I just can't. I lost most of my friends to hang around with, All I really have here is Leah. I don't talk to her that Much. I have Misty, Ethan (not really the best to talk about things with), Jason (I can't talk to you, But I know you'll always be there for me no matter how much we can't talk to each other), Not Tasha (Things happened), I have my cousin (Aaron) but we don't talk a hole lot). I just have Misty and Leah. That's about it. That's all I ask for but who I really need is Jason. I'm not doing any greater than you, I'm just hiding how I really feel untell I'm alone and I let it all out. He made me see how bright, Special, Happy I could be, How beautiful I was. Jason really helped me through things, and I thank him for that. I thank him so much! I swear I will try my hardest to make him feel the same. Jason said something in your blog like :
"i want to look my best. she deserves it. she deserves nothing but happiness."
I fell in Love with you, for you. Not for your looks or for the money. I fell in love with you and you know why. I am and always will be still happy with you, no matter what you look like or what you act like. I will always love you. I swear no matter what you look like, I promise, I will always love you. I will write later tonight, probably everyother hour...I hope Jasons day off is going well, get out. That's what I want. Do something, get happy, for me. I'm getting really emotional I think I'm going to go. I love you so much my future Husband. -really big huggs and kisses- (the kind where the one day I didn't want you to leave, where I held on and didn't let go kinda hugg) I'm still waiting. I love you...I promise no one else.