Loving Him

I love him so much. There are things that I didn't know. I didn't know he had baby fever, I just knew that he loved kids. I remember the one day he came home from i believe it was a bar with his friends and he was saying something about the bartender's kid and her commenting on how good he was with kids. The way he plays with Fucker aka Smokey lol is really cute. I think he's bossy when he says "Eat Fucker." well when sweetie's at work, I'm going to feed fucker pork and steak and lotts of treats and when he wonders why Fucker is so fat I'll be like i don't know with a big smile on my face. Same with our children. They'll be nice and plump and he'll wonder why. I won't know why. -big smile on my face-.

I'm sorry I lost controll of my emotions before. I just haven't been taking my pill...and like the special time of the month is coming...so like that doesn't help. Plus when i don't feel to good, I threw up playing PS2. Jason loves playing video games, so do i. I love our geekiness. it's so awsome. Our children are going to be just like us Geeky, Dorky, Silly, Funny, Wierd (that's Jason's trait) lol, and they're gonna be ice chewing lil' sweethearts! :D

I'm sorry for what i said about my mother. I just haven't had the best day today...I puked, I've been very light headed, time of the month, not taking my pills, having so many arguments. I'm so sorry. I smiled so widely when you said the bed bugg comment. I started crying too. I love our conversations so much, But I know you wanted me to write in here...I'm sorry i took forever. People keep bothering me, but i will write tomorrow. I love you my sweet love. -holds you close to me while we slowly but surely fall asleep together, arms wrapped around each other, hand in hand.- sleep tight hunny. Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
tootles for now baby(No good byes)