The One Whole Stole My Breath

Me-
Alone, Scared, Hurt, and confused. Mostly in love.

Jason I love you still. I've never loved some one like this before. I listen to the cd you burned me everyday, and I had the care bear tight. I don't let anyone touch 'em. I miss you. Im still waiting for you there. There hasn't a day where i haven't cried over missing you and not being with you. But it's really late. 1 o clock and I want to sleep but i know i won't be able too. I am to scared. To afraid of I'm going to see your face, the one that i saw on cam. You'r face was no longer smooth or soft, gentle. It was puffy, red, your eyes, you couldn't see the beauty in them anymore. I didn't want to look at it. It was unbareable. I couldn't stand seeing you so hurt...

I didn'thurt myself like i promised. I love you My Husband. Xoxo.