What I Think...N Say

I write in Red. The Color of My Blood. The Color of my pain, The pain I feel for those Assholes that Seperated me from my happiness. From Me and Jason's Happiness. We were Great. Now i just suffer in Pain, Hoping that some day we will be together, again. Forever. Jason...I love you!...I wanted to show you this...(Below...the picture of us!). I have thoughts of Jason bouncing around my head all day. If you pay close enough attention to my hearts beats...They'll say,

I love you Jason. I'll wait.

And they're repeating over and over...and the rythum runs through my viens and my body leaving me nothing but sorrow and sadness, but when i think of him a part of me gets happy and full of memories that make me cry. But they're so good memories.

I write about him and us at night, always late at night too! i can't stand to be thinking about other things. I need to be Calm and Deep in my depression state to write all my feelings out. Of how i really feel. When I feel Calm and depressed I know i say things that i shouldn't but a lot of the times i just let it all out. If I'm all wild and crazy it just isn't pretty. I will finish this blog tomorrow...I have to many people bothering me...I love you Jason, forever and foralways my Lover

Your Wife, Manda. Xoxo...Have a good night! please...for me.