Yesterday's Love is Today's Future
This is what i wrote yesterday:
Today i was caught in tears. They filled my eyes to a point where they look like waterfalls streaming down my eyes, past my cheeks and down my chin. Drip Dropping on my writings. (journal and poetry) They sawm down my face constantly. Never once stoping tell Me and Misty changed the subject but yet Jason lingered in my head. He always does. I never stop thinking about him. As Misty said..."He's my one and Only First True Love, never lose site on him!" And I won't. I swear I won't.
If he could only see and hear all my cries of Pain and Hatred towards others. It really isn't my idea of a "Normal Teenage Life". Other teens just say they Hate people because they can't get their way. I hate people becuase of all my shit I've put up with and that's been thrown at me.
Like Me and Jason. Now for sure we've been through shit that isn't pretty or isn't the best. It's the worst that's been thrown at me. I'm starting to conceal myself from life more and more everyday and I'm learning again how to hide away my emotions, something Jason taught and showed me how not to do. I don't want to shut the world out but it's on the way of happening. That's how bad I can't stand this world! I just want to hide and be strong.
That I'm really trying to be Strong. I'm doing it just for Jason. No one else made me as strong as I was and is but *Jason*@~}~. I don't want to date other guys and I don't want to keep them away. I just wanna be friends with guys. I hate getting asked out specially be people that I don't like. I'm flattered but no, I don't enjoy it knowing that I get asked out a lot. I just want and need one man in my life...That's you Jason.
I'm tired of getting asked out! I fucking hate it! I do the asking out! I'd rather do it. I guess that just shows that girls can do it too! I don't know. Just something about being asked out I don't like. I'd just rather Ask myself. That way When I do ask some one out (I know that I really like them because I don't Jump into relationships. I'm never dating anyone ever again 'cept my Sweet Dear Love Jason.)
I love you Jason. I think that Jason should get a blog so I can also see how he's doing.
Well have to go! I love you Lotts Jason. Xoxo. ToOtLeS!! for now.
Today i was caught in tears. They filled my eyes to a point where they look like waterfalls streaming down my eyes, past my cheeks and down my chin. Drip Dropping on my writings. (journal and poetry) They sawm down my face constantly. Never once stoping tell Me and Misty changed the subject but yet Jason lingered in my head. He always does. I never stop thinking about him. As Misty said..."He's my one and Only First True Love, never lose site on him!" And I won't. I swear I won't.
If he could only see and hear all my cries of Pain and Hatred towards others. It really isn't my idea of a "Normal Teenage Life". Other teens just say they Hate people because they can't get their way. I hate people becuase of all my shit I've put up with and that's been thrown at me.
Like Me and Jason. Now for sure we've been through shit that isn't pretty or isn't the best. It's the worst that's been thrown at me. I'm starting to conceal myself from life more and more everyday and I'm learning again how to hide away my emotions, something Jason taught and showed me how not to do. I don't want to shut the world out but it's on the way of happening. That's how bad I can't stand this world! I just want to hide and be strong.
That I'm really trying to be Strong. I'm doing it just for Jason. No one else made me as strong as I was and is but *Jason*@~}~. I don't want to date other guys and I don't want to keep them away. I just wanna be friends with guys. I hate getting asked out specially be people that I don't like. I'm flattered but no, I don't enjoy it knowing that I get asked out a lot. I just want and need one man in my life...That's you Jason.
I'm tired of getting asked out! I fucking hate it! I do the asking out! I'd rather do it. I guess that just shows that girls can do it too! I don't know. Just something about being asked out I don't like. I'd just rather Ask myself. That way When I do ask some one out (I know that I really like them because I don't Jump into relationships. I'm never dating anyone ever again 'cept my Sweet Dear Love Jason.)
I love you Jason. I think that Jason should get a blog so I can also see how he's doing.
Well have to go! I love you Lotts Jason. Xoxo. ToOtLeS!! for now.
posted by Jason's sweetie at 1:01 PM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home